ELSEWHERE

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 15:33:53 GMT

MOVVEEEDD ELSE WHERE !

FIND ME !

bam bam =)

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 16:01:00 GMT

10:53AM :
Yesterday was alright. I was soo hyped at the beggning of the day, then started going down and lost my energy ? Or perhaps becoz we all scatterred to places ? LOL . im telling you, IM TELLING YOU .. we were EVERYWHERE ! LITERALLY . First, we were walking dtown . Eatons, Queen & Spadina .. EVERYWHERE . We went to McDo, GoodFeet, Life or livestock ? i dun even know . JCY . & we went back to eatons & met some new peoples . maan, but we got kicked outta eatons for the day thoo =( LOL . stoopid peoples thought me & Cezil were the two girl that smacked other peoples .. While both me and Cezil were just doing, was eat ? ACTUALLY, three people were accused of smacking these people . Me, Samantha & Cezil . stoopid officerss 8-) . oh welps . i was soooo0o0 tierd yesterday . As soon as i went home, my rentsz said were all going to the movies as a fam . SO i expected i`d be sleeping when i got home ? but NOOO, i had to go to the movies . It was fun tho . Time with the fam, Mom .. Bro .. Dad.. me . My moms friend & her daughter =) , Then we all got home, & FOR TWO YEARS IVE BEEN WISHING .. I FINALLY got my own digi 8-) LOL . overall the day was alright, i was quite at some points tho ? LOL . i shud get my hyperness back . =D

My christmas day & randome thoughts along the day .

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 19:25:27 GMT

2:24PM : whatta fucked up Christmas day !
2:36PM : I feel like i can sleep throughout this day & not even noticing that Christmas just passed by .
2:44PM : A silent call of joyfullness, fails its calling . Christmas still feels like the worst day I've had this whole month.
3:06PM : umz, Am I cursed or something ? This Christmas was like last Christmas, & the Christmas before that & the Christmas before that. but this time .. it's much worse .
8:55PM : It's not so much of a fucked up day anymore . Buh its pretty fucked for a Christmas day .
8:57PM : He doesn't earn my respect, nor he w o r t h my pain.
9:02PM : The same man, taking another of your friend's dignity. Gotta warn these CHEAP TRAMPS to stop loosing theirselves, loosing their innocence .. too soon, too easy.
12/26/07 : 8:02AM : Yesterday, was getting better as the day went by. Before I knew it, Christmas was over by 12:00. Today feels more like the Christmas day to me, than yesterday :] BOXING DAY btw . nyahaha .

Get a life

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 21:59:10 GMT

I smell guilt in the air.
I smell fear.
I smell regretfulness.

What dont kill me only makes me stronger.
What I can see makes me wounder more.
What pain that I can't feel makes me cry.

But

What a waste man does, I just step on, spit on, despise on..

.. Get a life !

you, you or you ?

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 17:32:13 GMT

Its ONE of the three i should be choosing,

My mind is stubborn,
My heart is stubborn,

Can't choose just one YET .

Learn how to wait for me to choose .. which one outta all of you, fags .

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:38:12 GMT

He's Horny,
He's a killer,
His hugs are irresistable.
Literally !

He jumped on me ! - AH .

He's perfect :]

I'm interested, bitch.
but not interested enough to "like" you .. just yet .

Brother & Sister love : )

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 20:44:04 GMT

Aww, a little brother . Yes, I have a little younger brother thats about to out grow me just coz im this petite .
It was a boring day, decided to skip school . But to my surprize, today wasnt as bad as i thought it would be . It made me think of things. Things for my younger brother . Examples that i should set for him to follow .
I dun want him to think of me-- like what i think of my parents. Outta all people, you expect to have your rentz there for you . But their just the most opposite to that . They're just too close minded . People who i cant tell anything to .

In order for you to get along with me, you gotta be an understanding person . & thats something what my rentsz arent .
In this fam of ours, we ALL are close minded, Buh i wanna be different from this fam . I wanna be the open minded one . Thats why as to set an example for my brother, i want him to know .. when he grows up . That even tho my mom & dad are stubborn & close minded . I want him to know that i`ll always be there for him .. always. Even tho i get annoyed of him, Those are just the simple things that make me love my younger brother . Those are the things that make me miss him .
Alot of people deny and find it hard to believe that im close with my younger brother . Coz 1st, Hes 9 years younger than me . & how the heck could i possibly be close with a younger kid like that ?
See, to me things are different .. I actually care about my brother, The fact that our age difference is that big and far apart makes me know and understand that im suppose to be there for him, with him .. thru everything .. and share things with him that ive gone thru .. So in the end he wont have to go thru the same painsz i had to go thru .
People dun understand how much i care about him, How close me and my brothers bondings are . Having a younger brother is like having a wake up call to grow up, and start setting an example .. a gewd one .

When he grows up, i dun want him to follow the wrong examples that i might have given him .
I dun want him to learn bad things and having to pay for the stoopid actions he's done, coz ive been thru that .. & its never a gewd time to be in something that`ll put you into a bad position, Mistakes can be made and you can learn from them . But its not always your own mistakes you can learn from . You can learn from others mistakes too .

A brother for me, Is just what i need .
He completes what alot of girls want and need .

Ladies want those man, men .. that`ll be there for them ..
Buh for me, All i know what i need is .. My own lil younger brother that keeps me sane and makes everyday worth waking up for :)

ILY Baby bro ; Mark David Mance Dela Cruz

JUMP JUMP !

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 00:00:02 GMT

My level of satisfaction hasnt been reached yet, you fool.

Don't play me bitch, I know you well enough.

now go fuck some hoes !

Vise versa, baby .. now, IM gaming YOUR heart.

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 01:44:21 GMT

" I'll styll rock with you,
Coz your the real thing.

but y`know your too damn serious.
Baby, your too gewd for me ..
I think your fine & all, thats why I should let go

coz I know in the end ..

I`ll game your heart ..

.. I don't wanna hurt you"

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 11:25:43 GMT

FUCK FUCK FUCK ! WITHOUT THE SUN MAN, IT AINT THE SAME ! LOL . ITSS THE FUCKING TIME WHERE IM ALL FUCKING MOODY LIKE . SO MOODDDY, WETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT . THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN LATELY, SO FUCCK YOUSZ IF YOU DUN LIKE IT . COZ Y`THINK I LIKE IT EITHER ? MAN CEZIL, WE NEED THE FUCKIN SUN BACK GUY . ITS LIKE JDLAKSJDLAKJSDLAKJSDLAKJLDAJALKJDSLAKJLASKJDLSAKJ ! NOW BARE WITH ME IF I COEM OFF RUDE .. ITS THE FUCKING BITCH MODE :]

I FEEELL LIKEE S M A C K I N G SOMEONEEE LIKKEE MADDDDDD ....

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 01:03:27 GMT

`07 is going by fast, `08 is coming in by soon .
gotta make the most of it .
make goals, reach them.
avoid re-doing mistakes from the past.
Move on, from waste.
Wastes` suppose to be in trash, not kept.
Keep the good memories.
Trash, the bad ones.
The few now, will go a long way.
While the most before, stayed the shorter way.
Life`s complicated, play the game. Play with it.
Stay up high & on top. Don`t let no mutha fuckin step on you.
Theres no winner, But just dont be the looser.
Love is something you dont wanna play.
Its a game of its own.
No winners whatsoever, But there are those who just know how to play the game good.
Dont try to satisfy no one.
Satisfying someone else is what makes you low.
Stay on top, dont loose your innocence.
Its the most thing you`d wanna keep.
Take the advice you know is worth keeping,
Leave the others that may seem like, advices that`ll lead you elsewhere.
Stay with your studies, make it stay on top of your priorities -- second to fam.. etc
Dont let those play boys take over what y`got focused on.

07`, many lessons learned. Its that one year, where i wish the year wont pass.

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 04:19:32 GMT

This christmas is gun be live, i know it will be :)

MCDONALD TONIGHT WAS FUCK LIVE !

well , today was live . It wasnt an ordinary day . we actually went places. styll around the eglinton area . But didnt stay at Y&E this time tho . So this was the day . first , school .. DUH ! . we had a late start today ; so slept in . :) yea biitch . LOL . then met up with anthony and neal and christian at second cup at 8:30 but came late by 15 mins . Was suppose to meet up with Cezil too but didnt get to, coz she didnt arrive LOL . then went to school. the bus was mad packed . then school, shorter periods than usuall . I actually learn more with these supply teachers than the actuall ones LOL . then umms ..after school LOL . we were suppose to reach dtown buh i decided not to go, then christian decided not to go .. then anthony and gian decided not to go and so on . So after school, me and neal and Gian went walking down eglinton and decided to reach rec centre . Saw alex, Nicole, Sherwin, Franny, so on . Neal went with Alex, Nicole and Franny and Sherwin to the mall . Me and Gian tried to call Cezil to tell her to meet us up instead at rec . So me and Gian went to rec, saw Cezil and them at the hill , taboganing LOL . then yea, Cezil and christian and them caught up and went to rec. then me and lester and markie and anthony and micheal and cezil went running laps LOL . me and lester stayed for like the longest time man LOL was so exhausted LOl . then we decided to leave to get christian and anthonys shorts since they was gun play ball . so we all left, Cezil left goin home . and lester and Micheal and others . So i get left with christian and anothny . Anthony went to his place, and i stayed with christian and we went to his place . i stayed at his mutha fucking coolest ever lobby . man , thats like the place to be . the place to sleep . the fucking placeee . Like theres the couches, the mirror . the table . MAN, the fucking couches are so soft . theyre softer than boobs i think ? LOL . man , theyre just so sfott and nice and man . Christian ruined my time sleeping in that loobby when he threw that ball at my face when he got down . FUCK ER ! LOL . If the lobby is already that fucking awesome . i wounder what about the house ? LMFAO . im joking . Man, that ball styll scared me . i was half as sleep LOL . anyway , moving on . we went outside .. went to the convinience store then went to reach anthonys place to pick him up .. then we went to rec again . and then we saw gian again . and then we were at rec and decided not to play instead .. so then cody and JR went with me gian anthony and christian .. saw neal with "someone" .. .. continued walking ..we walked to pass the mall then we went to mcdonald .. then JR left .. and me and anothy and christian and gian and cody were talking and eating and chilling . then cody left . then me and gian and christian and anthony were left .. and we talked and laughed and omg . everything stays in mcdo where EVERYTHING happend . man , i swear . everytime im eating . RANDOME PEOPLE I DUN KNOW TALK TO ME . LOL . i swear . maan, how many inside jokes were created after tonight LOL . hours inside that mcdo . we own mcdo now LOL . then after 3 - 4ish hours of stayin in there we decided to go home .. well , i did . buh they all went home too . me and gian deperated from christian and anthony . we were at eglinton station .. and now me and gian seperated . buh maan , if onlyyyyy everything to anything we talked aboutt was to go out . man , you guys would knw how live it was . LOL . t`was fuckin jokes . "born again ? YOU KNOW AGAIN !" LOL ill leave it to those who just know wuh i mean LOL . anyway, so all in all . today was fun . .

HOROOSCOOPPPEE;;

Cancer: You're finding yourself very attracted to two (or is it three?) people. Nothing wrong with that, but it's about time to decide who you want to be with..

shitson . this f`real . maybe its true, maybe its not .
maybe im lying to myself to find i probably do like three people . possible y`know ?
buh, just some horoscope . but im hardly doubting in it .
i found my way of letting go, coz i already chose one each and everytime whenever the other one wasnt right . and all of those three dun do gewd . i guess this jus some late horoscope i shuda had before . this horoscope goes for cezil as well, biitch LOL . read this . 3 people . man , this sounds so true . LOL . buh naw for me . not anymore . at least i hope . :)

CHICKS BEFORE DICKS :)

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 02:31:55 GMT

ITS ALL ABOUT THE LOVE AND POSSITIVE-NESS !
WASTE MEN NOT NEEDED , FUCK A SHOOTER !
FUCK , WHOEVER KEEP THERE BOYS UP HIGHER THAN THEIR GIRLS ;
WE SHOUT ; ISSH CHICKKS BEFORE DEM DICCKS !
LMFAAO , kaysz .. im being stoopid and im REALLY hyper ! buh its f`real .. CHICKS before DICKS :)

what i think "love" is'nt ..

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 03:42:02 GMT

soo , i already put this on my facebook but i feel like atually putting it ON THE JOURNAL ! Lol . so yea ;

so , in the summer i was doing these number of notes on my opinion of love and things in life . i guess i loved it coz it kept me ocupied and it was a great way to say/write in words about what i felt / thought about everything to anything . feel free to comment even tho you may not be tagged . so as i said in the summer , i was doing numbers of notes . before the beggining of the school year i decided to delete them . stoopid me , i didnt even save it . so i guess ill have a fresh new start .

someone , and a situation inspired me to start doing this again . especially that i see hurt and pain in her eyes . all because of a guy .
love & pain ? different words , same feeling ? .. are they the same ? ..
so in the summer , i thought they were the same . and i had strong points to proove my opinion , tho .. i proove my opinion wrong and changed it now .
pain happens when you love someone doesnt it ? but pain doesnt nessacerally mean love .

love is love . pain is a l e s s o n .

anyone hurd of the saying ; in every relationship your going to be in , theres goin to be pain . you just have to choose whos worth the pain .
well , in every relatinship theres also lessons that are to be learned . pain is the lesson , in each lesson theres pain . wether its from dating a player/husler , to being the player yourself . its pain both ways , and a lesson . some people learn the lesson in a hard way , and THAT sucksz . some people learn it the easy way , with less pain and heartache . the faster you learn , the faster and easier everything is . so if you`ve ever been in " love "
lets say , and you`ve " experienced " pain . dun hate that you loved a person .. just hate what you have to go thru to love someone . pain will keep on coming and going the same way love comes and goes . sometimes pain keeps coming to people over and over and over again the same way / the same situation . that`ll keep happening unless you stop being stubborn [ not that im saying anyone is stubborn ] and start learning from your mistake , make changes , fix them .. and move on to something better that`ll give you less pain at all cost . so i guess all im trying to say to my friend that has been experiencing "pain" at the moment , that .. just becoz that it really hurts to love this person shes loving at the moment , doesnt mean it has to be THIS bad [ even tho it does seem bad ( to be honest ) ] , but think of it as a gewd way .. you and him are just goin thru a "lesson" . the gewd part to it is .. after you fix and make things work [ if it does ] then your relationship with eachother will just get stronger . the way it`ll get weaker is if both of you , get lazy and not try to work things out .. even if its just one of you working things out . and another reason why a relationship might go down .. is if your not ment to work things out / or for eachother .
thats the hard part some people just have to accept .
AND well , thats just my opinion . dont have to do or believe what im saying . at the end you`ll be the one whos gunna finalize your decision .
but then again , becoz this is just an opinion .. it might change again .
if anything , i hope ive givin you something to think about :)

i hurt him

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 00:41:06 GMT

I hurt h i m . . BADLY !
.. DAMN !
.. AWKWARD !
.. DONE WITH !

.. understand me

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 23:05:30 GMT

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !

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FFUUUCCCK !
.. i dont wanna hurt you
.. but , iif i already have
.. i want you to know, that i didnt mean to .
i dont want this to happen
but its worse the other way .
im just being honest to myself ,
and i just wanna be honest to you too .
understand me please ?

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 21:56:28 GMT

~~where were you when i said i loved you ?~~

Dec.24.07 - 10:08PM

Correction: Question left unanswered

One night stand

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 19:18:30 GMT

.. he was a one night stand !

i gotta be honest to myself now .. did i just use him to forget about someone else i truely wanted to be with , and i just woke up now ? .. to figure out what a big mistake i have done ?
did i just use him to avoid pain ? but got twice the pain back ?
did i use him at all ? but i really think i didnt , and never will ever want to .
did i use him to hurt him ? and ended up hurting myself .
did i just use a bestfriend ? tho , i dont want the friendship to end .

.. i gotta tell him
.. before its too late
.. but hes fallin more and more everyday
.. but im falling OUT of it more and more everyday
.. before he more pain kicks in
.. how ?

i cant .
i got to .
its hard .
the pain .
HIS pain .
my chance .
his lose .
our friendship .
my cause .

help !!!? =(

using you ?

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 23:23:14 GMT

DUUDEE ! the way im hurting you is hurting myself . im just too sympathetic to the point where im actually feeling YOUR pain . you havent gone throught this pain yet , and i dont want you too . i dun wanna go thru anything like this , i dun want you to feel pain .. and i dun wanna be the cause for your pain . your an important role in my life , your closer to me than anyone else .. but honestly , if we ever get together and everything .. i think i`ll styll be having my backburner on my mind . i dun wanna hurt you , i honestly dont . you have to understand , you do understand .. am i sure ? i hope im sure , so many doubts .. many lies ? i dun want you to think i led you . am i ? honestly ? if the backburner and i dun really have something going on , i dun wanna loose my chances with you either . is it 50/50 % ? i dun wanna be said as if im using you , coz im not , at least i dun feel like im using you , and its not in my plan too . . and it never has .
so many things are happening , when it was me and the backburner .. everytime something happens between both of us , theres always something stopping us , not to be dry , but to be honest .. i honestly think that your that something thats keeping from me and him .. as usuall shit .
im not saying i dun want you there , im just saying i dun want the relationship .
we both are attracted to eachother , and another thing if anything .. im gunna be yur first . i once was on the one with cezil and i was telling her how .. if we ever gotten together id be happy to be there for you and be there to teach you how to treat your girl .. i think im startin to beg to differ . im startin i want to be single , and just wait for my backburner . i honestly do . i dun wanna use you , or i dun want you to think that im using you . i sleep , wake up in the morning having something new to think about , i started thiking .. even tho we might be together , how bout when i see my backburner ? i`ll be hiding that were ever together . and thats not what a relationship is suppose to be . i know it isnt . but maaan , i just dun wanna hurt you . you`ve always been there for me . i dun .. i dun wanna hurt you . im speaking realtawks . i think the farthest we`ll ever be with eachother is only till dealing . sorry , i got my backburner im willing to wait for . and becoz i like him too much .. `youd say ; JUST GO UP TO HIM IF YOU LIKE HIM . but .. its not like that , i dun wanna go up strong to him . and scare him away , i want him to fall for me . fall for me for a reason . not with force , i want him to tell me he does like me , and not me telling him . its really what i feel . im just being honest to both me and you .. i just gotta go up to you .. and thats the hard part . tell you how i feel and the truth . HELP !

whats happening ; honestly .. first , im getting chopped b grade 11s . second i got kissed by a guy i used to have feelings for in the summer . outta the randome too . wtf is going on ? then , ive been incited to partied with grade 11 / 12 ppls . seniors lets say , guess what ? i turned em doowwn bittch LOL . then theres a dance at my friends school ,, imma vist :) .. i guess i shud just honestly wait . . and be patient . i think thats the lesson i have to learn , wait for my backburner . as the grade 12 friend of mine said ; dun worry .. soon he`ll like you .. one day ( im waiting for that one day ) .. and everything`ll be worth waitin for . and if you guys are ever together , he`ll teart you gewd . except hes bros before hoes . so if your ever together and you ask him to chill the same day his boys ask him to chill , he`ll choose his boys over his girl . but the gewd part to it is ; at least hes not a player , so moment spent are f`real and not fake . yet if he is a player ( which he isnt ) .. if time soent together .. me before his bros .. no shit is f`real coz hes a player and got dem other hoes he treating his shit . but gewd thing , he really isnt a player .. i let you go once , my fault . if ever were together again .. i will NEVER wanna let you go . EVER again . baby , please come back .

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 15:20:58 GMT

ONE ~~GIRL~~ MAN TO LOVE

All fellas please listen up to me
I sincerely say these words
W h a t g o e s a r o u n d , c o m e s b a c k a r o u n d
I hope you feel me, cuz i'm not hating no
If you keep doing these ~~girls~~ mans wrong
Somebody's gonna do us wrong
It's reality, i need you here with me
If we keep breaking these ~~girls~~ mans hearts
Somebody's gonna break our hearts
It's reality, now I know what i need

Is one ~~girl~~ man to love
Give ~~her~~ him all of me
One ~~girl~~ man to love
Give ~~her~~ him everything she needs yeah

It's time for me to hang up my cleets
Cuz my playing games are over
And I need the right one here with me
My friends don't understand why
Lately I don't hang out all night
Someday they'll feel me
But I'm not hating no
If you keep doing these ~~girls~~ mans wrong
Somebody's gonna do us wrong
It's reality, it's reality
Need you here with me
If we keep breaking these ~~girls~~ mans hearts
Somebody's gonna break our hearts
It's reality, now I know what i need

Only if I had a ~~girl~~ man like you
So all some insecure
Searching for perfection would be true
Words cannot describe the feeling
I p r a y to god that I meet you some day
Maybe in church on sunday
I'll be patient

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 01:05:11 GMT

damnit , im done now . i`ll just stay 100% focused , in school ; . .
there are sooo many things i could be tawkin about right now , buh im so unsure of things .
i hate to see people get hurt , wether they like me or nawt .
wether theyre someone who i like or even hate .
im too sympathetic to the point where i feel their pain .
at the same time , maybe its really nothin to feel pain about ,
and shud honestly just be understanding and nawt only feel
and understand about how theeey only feel inside of em .
anywaay , omg . i cant say i like ~~this guy~~ MY FRIEND . fawk , its nawt funny .
from yesterday i was styll confused bout the two .
buh honestly ; ive waited to l o o n g for things im startin to let go , buh out of no where .
seriously , please tellll mee im nawt starting to like this guuy .
hes jusst so nice and what nawt . buh NOO , i cant . its weird , and AWKWARD ! .. never , OMG ! noo .
there are so many things that are happening its nawt even funny .
first ) my bestfriendS, im feelin dicthed now that they`ve gawt a man to occupy them .
second ) ive been feeling like a third wheel lately .
third ) i think im liking the weirdest yet nicest guy .
forth ) people who ive expected wil HATE me , are actually realllly nice to me .
which i can say is a gewd thing . there is just so much drama in the air that i see for now .
altho , i dun even wanna bother noticing any of it . i`ll stay bein myself ; drama - free .
altho , i do gotta admit .. drama does pass by in my life few times here in there , buh i really dun giva fawk :)
there are gewd things , and there are bad things .
i just dun really know or realize wuh the gewd things are for now .
heeey , cant blame me . the bad ones are ~~sometimes~~ ALWAYS the easi-est to spot :)
sometimes i reminise about me and my ex .. buh mostly reminisin
of wuh we had , just NAWT h i m :)
y`know .. ish nice to be single
without all that stress , buh sometimes its also nice to have someone there and bein there .
as my girl always tells me ; its nawt you fault , " Your just liking the wrong guys " .
i hope at least thats the reason , coz if i do like that right guy , at least i`ll hope no more bullshitsz will be AROUND !

Love or is it just friendship ? Looks or personality ?

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 03:00:46 GMT

SHAAAWWWTY ISS A TEEN !

BALLA ISS MAAH MAAAN

( 8 )
fawwwk , here i am again goin thru wuh i did before . always had complications ; its never gunna end is it ? :| sometimes , after liking someone you tend to end up getting closer with someone . or sometimes , after getting closer with someone you tend to end up liking them . right now , im nawt really sure wether its a deep friendship we share or if its even more ? he likes someone else , makes me hope less .. less chances with him . although at the very same time , he knows i like someone else too . im afraid to tell him , it`ll be real awkward , i'd know :)
I havent been in much relationships , i dun wanna be , and i dun wish to be . if anything ; i`d wanna have a real one . nawt those lovie dovie shit " I love you " . I've seen enough of it , and seen wuh it can do to you . this time its different , i dun really know wether i like this other guy for his looks or his personality or even both . and i dun really know if i like this guy in a " gewd friendship " manner , or more than a friendship . there are certain stuff i like about him , and there are other stuff i like about him .
Love is also shared in a friendship , thats why im nawt even that sure about wuh im feelin recently , or even how he feels . fawwwk maan . again again again . AGAIN ! fawwk -___-" i guess ill live it as it is and see wuh things happen , as for now i guess ill keep focused ; BRAP !

stuck between the two.. < ? 3

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 00:13:44 GMT

This has been seriously goin on for as long as i can think it has ..
it has been 8 - 9 months ive kept my eyes on you , all on my own .
few times ive thought you felt the same , few times ive thought they were all lies .
i tried to avoid you by liking someone else , i most likely end up liking a person who just reminds me off you , its styll you , nawt someone else .
I like someone else , i like you . I like someone else , i liked you again .
I keep fallin for you over and over again , ive never liked anyone this way before , to the times i just wished i never met you .
somethin about you has made me like you , buh at times .. maybe ive just liked the fakeness .
real tawks naw ; one day , you started appearin all rude and stuff , im a girl who dun take shit . nawt from anyone , and especially nawt from you .
so as the way you`ve treated me , ive decided to move along to someone who i know i get along greatly with .. gewd idea ? WRONG !
i end up hurting myself in two ways , you and him .
its so confusing how i got so led on , and ended up feeling like trash .
so as soon as i stopped liking you , i end up liking you AGAIN after bein all nice again .
i know it looks like a pattern already , and i know i shud be giving up , buh i treat you the same way . at times im nice , at times im rude .
i dun expect much , as much as you shud expect from me . so i tend to give you more chances , coz if i were you .. i know i'd want more , i'd understand .
the question is ; why do i keep goin back to you ? its holding me back from something ive wanted .
both of you actually .
hes gawt a girl .. on the way .
and i dun even know about you , i hardly tawk to you know .
i just wish we were styll on that track when no one lied to us , or ME .. and let us be .
now that thats all gone , iunno if i can get it back ?
coz for right now .. im seriously stuck between the two .. help .